Sunday, October 16, 2016

Subject Object




It’s hard to breathe.  The air is imperceptibly icy, and it pushes through with a perplexing difficulty similar to when your neck swells under the angry grasp of a lover’s hand.   You silently agree to suffocate as he rams his dick inside you, clogging your every orifice with his flesh and resentment and the stench of his lust.

It’s hard to breathe, but her flesh is clean and expectant and wrapped in a Japanese yukata that holds secrets of her most carnal nightmares.  She is used to imprisoning her desires, which often turn into a thick, sticky sap hidden behind the bulging lips of her pussy.  She is used to gliding her fingers between them when she thinks of him.  But she never touches him, and her gaze is controlled.  When she does look at him, there is a changeability in his eyes that is both arousing and disorienting.  He looks different every time, and her innate desire to control everything is defeated just by this fact.  The boyish innocence about him is an illusion.  She knows this because he is forever distant despite her soft attempts to draw him closer.  And even though she is patient, she is not used to waiting.  His relentless distance is what causes her to feel embarrassment every time her fingers circle her clit and she pictures the sharpness of his frame stabbing her from every angle.   He is tall, still (so still he threatens to be volatile) and terrifying (even though his smiles live somewhere between cotton candy and the smell of virgin choir boys). 

She feels sick with want, the sap inside of her spilling out against her will.  She is sick that she cannot pull his hair, and that the smell of his sweating torso on her tongue is unknown.  She is sick that she cannot hurt his skin with the edge of her teeth and make him cry something out that would indicate her victory.  She is sick that his lips always seem raw and oppressive and too far from her breasts.  She is sick that she cannot test his strength, that his words are immaculate, that his eyes are always changing. 

She is sick and starving for him to come and finish what is left of her.  She waits for him in her sickly stillness.  Her desperation for his cock has made her go blind.  She feels her pussy gasping for his dick the way fish convulse out of water. Her spine is unable to relax.  She is so horny she could cry.
He arrives.  She watches him come down the stairs.  She is again surprised by his eyes, which again have changed.  But he is handsome, commanding, and his skin looks clean and soft, and his smile is friendly and it puts her at ease, and he’s getting closer and it takes forever.  He stops at the door and peers in.  She knows he is there to fuck her, yet he just stands there.  Like a dog, she clings to the space between them, waiting to be fed.  But she must wait. 

She follows his slow steps, watching him obediently.  She doesn’t know if he still intends to rub his dick along her ass crack, if he will let her choke on his cock as her taste buds try to memorize the salty flesh around his balls, if he will massage his warm cum on her thighs to make her sleep.  She can’t tell if he wants to lose his tongue inside her and make her cunt explode with spit and heat and secrets about him she doesn’t know.  She will never know.


She now walks a little ahead of him, but he refuses to walk faster.  She offers him a glass of water – a senseless gesture to kill time and bring him deeper into her apartment so she can force her pussy on him and consume him whole.  She asks him a banal question about his day and passes him a cup of water because she doesn’t own glasses.  He ignores her and instead takes a sip from the cup, barely.  Perhaps he was just mimicking the action.  She cannot even see the water slide down his throat.  But he ignores her and refuses to meet her eyes which are waiting on him with a desire that is charged with violence and greed.  For a second, she thinks he is gone.  He won’t look at her or talk to her.  He won’t drink water.  He won’t walk quickly.  He won’t touch her.  For a second, she is waiting forever.  She is so numbed by that bursting throb in her pussy and the froth behind their lips she doesn’t even realize the moment he starts descending towards her.  His eyes still away, the cup of water untouched.  She wants to throw herself at him, but instead, she melts.  Her flesh oozes onto his.  His strength begins to permeate its way through.  His tongue is warm and full of the sex he’s had.  She’s forgotten herself as her pussy reaches forward trying to catch him, wanting to smear his face with her sap, hoping it will smell like fungus on dry roses or anything piercing and beautiful.  She feels his hands slide onto her ass and everything disintegrates. The yukata comes off.  

She can breathe. 

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